Realization

Have you ever realized that you liked the idea of something better than you liked that actual thing?

Dumb question. Yes, we all have. I guess it's part of that "You always want what you can't have" syndrome. Or at least a spurn off of it. Do you know what I mean? Probably not, but that's okay.

Recently, I came to the realization that I was clinging to the image that I had built up of this thing. I was so sure that (even though I had already decided that I didn't want the actual thing) the idea of it was what I wanted and needed.

Am I making any sense? No. That's okay.

I'll stop boring you with a confused woman's babbling. Hopefully tomorrow I'll have something interesting to say.

Oh, and by the way, if you (whomever actually does read this blog) do understand can you comment? Anything, even a "Yes, you make sense" or "You're not crazy" will suffice. lol