I sit awake at 1:18AM staring blankly at my computer screen, trying to think up something profound to say. Facebook is up. No one is on at this hour (except other insomniacs). The only reason that it's still up, I guess, is that I kind of hope that someone will want to talk (like that'll ever happen). Other than having someone just "like" my really depressing status, there's not much going on there.
I'm going to lunch in ten hours, seriously, why am I still up?
If I was completely honest with myself I would know. And I guess since it is almost one-thirty and not very many people read this I'll go ahead and tell you. I've really been pondering my future these last few days. What am I going to do with the rest of my life? Who am I going to be? Do I really want everything I've always said I did? Is there a man out there that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with? Will I have to be on this medication forever? Am I doing the right thing?
There's more, but seeing as this is open to the world to view...well you get the picture.
So much is swimming through my mind. I don;t know how to shake this. I know my friends are starting to get annoyed with it. Believe me, I am too. I wish there was some way to shake this.
Got any ideas?
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