Faith

I used to have such a great faith in God. I knew what I believed and why I believed it. I practiced it with joy.

Sadly, things are different now.

I believe in God, I am thankful for what he has done for me, but my faith is at an all time low. I'm bored with Christianity. I'm tired of hearing the same stories over and over with the exact same moral. It's either "repent now because Jesus is coming back tomorrow" or "tithe." I've visited several different churches lately and it's all the same. I feel like a fraud even looking at a Bible. Everything I've read about faith lately makes me feel confined. Like God wants to put me in a little box on a shelf. I know this isn't true, but that's what it feels like. I feel condemned. I am almost completely desensitized to sin. Very little offends me. I realize when an action of mine or another does not line up with God's standards, but I almost don't care. I know I should care but I can't.

I really do want to get back to where I was with God, but I have no idea where to start (especially in the Bible, I've read it all before, there isn't anything new, reading it makes me feel like I'm being taught kindergarten math all over again). I'm bored. And I feel bad that I'm bored, but that's how it is.

So how on earth do I change that? Please tell me. (and don't just say "try reading another translation of the bible, tried that, doesn't work)