It's been a while...

It's been a while since my last post...fifteen days to be exact. It seems like it's been so much longer. Time slips away from you, I guess.

It's been a rough few weeks. Heck, it always is. Life is ruled by drama unfortunately.

Spiritually, I'm not as close to God as I need/want to be. Haven't been for a while....And I have no idea how to get back on track.

Emotionally, I'm drained. For the last few weeks I've been to the point where I could cry for no reason.

Physically, at the moment I'm not happy with how I look. Because of the mono I wasn't able to exercise last month, and lately I've been stress eating, so I've gained some weight.

I know exactly what I want, but I have no idea how to obtain any of it. Some of those things are out of my power to bring to occurrence, but I'm at the point of needing something to happen. I need something big to happen, and whatever it is I need it to be something good because I have had way too much bad happen this year.

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I have a problem. Something is going on in my life that really shouldn't be happening. I need to snap out of it. But I don't know how to. I need some help.

Please be praying for me. For patience, for understanding, for acceptance, and that I will keep God's will in mind.

Thank you.

If you want details, feel free to contact me.

It's Pathetic, I know...

So, because of my last post, my best friend dared me to open an eHarmony account just for fun. She did it too. And surprise, surprise, guess how many matches I received.

ZERO

LOL!!! This was stupid and fun at the same time. Online dating is not for me. At this point, dating isn't for me. I'll get back out there one of these days, but for now I'm focusing on my relationship with God and my education.

God is writing my love story, He'll bring the man He has for me around when He deems time.

Confused

Today, I came to the realization that just this week I have become 100% okay with being single. I've also become quite cynical. I'm to the point where I just don't care about love. I know it exists, I've seen it in many couples. However, I am just not sure that there's a "One" out there for me.

Now yes, I really do want to get married at some point in my life. I want to fall in love, and be in love. I want to wake up every morning beside a man who is my closest friend and the love of my life. I have no desire to be single for the rest of my life. But, at this point in my life, I don't think that this person is near. And I'm okay with that.

The frustrating thing is that every time I turn on the TV one of those eHarmony commercials. Find love now! Gah!! All I want to do is shout "DOWN WITH LOVE!!!" every time I see one. But then I start to think, "Hey, that would be kind of nice..."

GRRRR......

**FACEPALM**

I am an idiot.

I am a MAJOR idiot.

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A Quick Rant...

About Boys

1. If you are going to be late, or will be unable to show up, call or text! Do NOT make her call/text you trying to figure out if you are going to show.

2. If you ask for a girl's number (at no prompting from her end) use it! Don't just ask to be polite.

This is the second time in 24 hours that I have been stood up, by a guy, for a project or planned activity.

This is why I am not dating.