One More Quick Note:

Dear Frenemy:

How is it that every time I finally convince myself that I'm better off without you you weasel your way back into my life?

Love/Hate,
Me

A Few Quick Notes:

Dear Friend,

It has been a while. I just wanted to drop a line and say hello. Although we appear to have grown apart I want you to know that I am still here. Don't be afraid to speak up.

Love,
Me

Dear Friend,

I've been receiving mixed signals from you. It's to the point where I don't really know what is going on. Would you enlighten me please?

Love,
Me

Dear Friend,

I MISS YOUR FACE!!!!!!!!! We are going to hang out the first available moment!

Love,
Me

Dear Friend,

I wish that our schedules matched up every now and again. I miss you.

Love,
Me

Dear Friend,

We have never met in person but I feel as though we know each other. Feel free to drop a line any time. I'm here for you.

Love Me

Dear Friend,

You make my heart happy and you don't even know it. I'm looking forward to getting to know you better.

Love,
Me

Just This:

All you had to do was speak up.

Update (Just Some General Stuff)

I spent last week in Florida with my grandma and my two great aunts. It was SO much fun! We stayed in a condo right on the beach. We went shopping almost every day. We watched movies. Told family stories. It was a great start to my summer!

The boy......I don't really know what's going on there. But I'm okay with that.

My mother is trying to arrange a marriage between me and this guy I met once about four or five years ago. He seemed like a nice guy. But really, Mom? I know you work with his mother's best friend and you'd love to be his mother-in-law, but I don't know the man! The meeting was awkward as all get out! We both knew it was a set-up and it was just weird!!! She's still holding on to that dream. And yes, after being out in the dating world I have reached the point of utter frustration and I do see why people way back when had arranged marriages. But I don't really want to be set up again. Not for a while at least. Now if something just falls in my lap, I'll go with it and see. I'm not opposed to being with someone. Just being set up.

Lost ended last night. Yes I know, I'm one of those. I didn't jump on the band waggon six years ago though. I started watching Lost last Christmas. I was home alone and had nothing to do so I started watching from the beginning and got sucked in. I've never been obsessed, but I have wanted to see how it would all end. Frankly, I wish that it had ended sooner and that they would have cut out a lot of stuff. It dragged on for so long. But the final episode was beautiful (at least the last 30 min of it was). I realized some things about myself that I'll go into later. Not now though.

Well, work starts this week and I'm off to clean my room.

The Bathing Suit and Mr. Right

Today, after five hours of shopping, I finally found a great bathing suit. It's been forever since I've had a two piece, so I looked long and hard for this one. It's a tankini, but it's really cute. The real shocker is that I'd passed over this one multiple times before finally trying it on.

While driving home I had a rather profound thought. What if the Mr. Rights in the world are like that bathing suit? They're right there. They've always been right there, but they don't jump out at you. They sit there quietly and show themselves to you when you're ready to see them.

We try on the crazy ones that we know we'd never buy, the very safe, the fun and flirty but a little too girly, and then finally we see this one and figure "what the heck." Sometimes we need a bit of nudging in the right direction, but in the end, we are confidant in our pick.

So, be open, be alert, and open your eyes to what is right in front of you.

Numb

no reason....just...numb

Premonition

I had a feeling this would happen

It's not the first time, and it most certainly will not be the last

But I wanted this time to be different

I'm not giving up

I'm not throwing my hands up in defeat

I guess I'm waiting, arms outstretched welcoming it if it comes

And

Willing to let it pass on by if it does not

Conflicted

Tonight, I really don't want to hear from you.

But every time I hear that annoying AT&T alert I secretly hope that it's you.